Posted on Thursday, 2nd November 2006 by augel
It’s only the middle of the week but I feel like I’ve been through a lifetime. I feel like I’ve spent an eternity for the past few days.
The past weekend came as a blur. My aunt Lorna called early Sunday morning that my lola isn’t doing too well. So my parents rushed to Tubungan. Arian and I just stayed home and I slept the whole day. Nanay called in the evening to check on us and tell us that they will be spending the night at the hospital. My lola was critical.
Cousin Cecil tapped in my window very early Monday morning to ask if I’d go with them to the hospital and I decided I was too sleepy so I said No. But then after a few minutes, Tatay texted me telling me that our lola was dead.
Uggh. I felt a big lump in my stomach. And I guess I can say that I understand when people say that it feels so surreal and like you’re just numb with disbelief. I don’t think that the news really sunk in to me. I just got ready as fast as I can and we were out of the house by 7:00am to go to Guimbal hospital. Nong Reth met us at la paz plaza and off we went to guimbal.
I don’t want to rehash things now. I don’t want to remember that day. All I can say that by the time we went home, I was too tired to function. I didn’t get a few winks so I was a wreck at work. I dozed off, and fought off the urge to just cuddle up and sleep.
When I went home Tuesday morning, I slept, slept, and slept. Then came another blow.
Just when I thought Lady Fortuna couldn’t get any more cruel, I was slapped another misfortune.
I just got up from bed and was just tinkering about in the computer when my cousin cecil burst in our house.
The look in her face must already gave me a clue to the heartbreaking news. I should have run out of the house and not hear. But too late. Nong Reth run over Kim, and she’s dying. My cousin got Xiani (who was lying in the couch) and went back to Kim.
Same as the day before, I felt numb and disbelieving. I was really just in denial and thinking that this could not be happening. Cats have nine lives, do they? Can’s she just muster a few and live a little longer? A few minutes later, my cousin came back, saying that Kim is indeed dead.
I guess, all the bottled up emotions just came tumbling down and I cried my heart out in the bathroom, with Chad staring at me.
I’m still inclined to cry whenever I think of my Lola and Kim, so I will stop now.
The only thing that makes things a little better is that we have Chad. He’s just so cute and funny, cuddly and adorable and he just makes me forget even for awhile all the sad things that’s been happening lately. We’re all getting attached to him and it’s like “chad! chad! chad! come here…� in the house nowadays. The good thing about a dog is that they’re always ready to please people. Just as my brother would say - whenever he calls “Chad!� and then the tiny puppy who still trips over his own paws comes bounding up to him - “into�.
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