not that i haven’t cut my hair in years, it’s just that whenever i get a haircut, i always tell the stylist to just trim off an inch, just to get the nasty split-ends…

but yesterday, i finally decided to trim it off quite a bit… my hair used to be way past my waist, but now it’s just a little below my shoulders…

i actually like it because it’s kind of liberating not minding a very long hair… besides, i looked like an old hag with a very long hair because it just kind of hangs in there, lifeless and dull… my “bangs” are gone though, i got my hair relaxed and i told the stylist to trim my bangs but “she” said it’ll frizzle and curl up because of the relaxer… so now i’m “bangs-less” – wehehehe… i dunno if “bangs-less” really means something, but anywho… i’m still determined to get bangs so, i think after a month or so, i’d go back to the saloon to have my hair trimmed and get bangs… i kind of like the bangs because it made me look younger… wahaha… i can’t really face the fact that i’m “old”…

did i mention that my uncle died? i think not… he’s the husband of my auntie zenaida… i think he died of a tumor in his eyes… i didn’t really ask for the details because i hate thinking about it… i guess it was kind of inevitable because for the past weeks, he had stopped eating, and he was being feed only by tubes and then i think for a couple of days, he was in a coma…

it’s really sad and tragic… the funeral’s on sunday and we were all supposed to go to negros… i wanted to go with my cousins because they plan to go via guimaras saturday morning (and have some “adventure” and sight-seeing) but our “boss” is supposed to arrive from the US on saturday, and well, while it’s not a problem for me to be absent any day i want, i can’t if the boss is arriving since that would mean missing the chance to meet him…

so the plan is that arian (my younger bro) and i would just leave on sunday morning, as soon as i get off from work…

office life is improving… i think that we had built some kind of camaderie around the office, they are already having activities outside the office, they’re playing badminton…. i really wanted to go with them last sunday… the problem was that i was on my office attire and haven’t any change of clothes…. another problem is that i’m not really very adept at playing badminton… wehehehe… i was kind of hesitant in subjecting myself to another embarrassment in front of the people i work with and see everyday…

my brother is telling me take up tennis lessons (even offered to pay for it)… hahaha… he’s kind of desperate coz he does not have a tennis “buddy”… i actually had a couple of lessons on tennis, but it was just like how to hit the ball properly and the techy stuff… i don’t know if i can make the ball go over the net as i still find the racket kind of heavy…. i’d actually like to really learn, so i guess i would just have to figure out how to fit the lessons in my “schedule”

i really miss sha… last week, sha called the house i think three times, but i was always asleep, so i didn’t have the chance to talk to her… thankully, when she called last sunday, we were all home… i only talked to her for an hour though, because tita was already calling her… i think i’d ask her to watch a movie next week… we’d been waiting for Click so i think we’d watch that… she’s having personal problems at the office though… she was kind of in the same “dilemma” as me last time… but she’s an even worse situation… she even said she’s thinking of resigning… i just hope she’d work out the problem… we haven’t really talked about it though…

leopold (the rottweiler) is now called pod-pod… hahaha… i was kind of wondering why when i call him leo or pol he would not come to me… i thought at first he still doesn’t know his name but then later i found out that my cousins call him pod-pod…. wehehehe… he’s getting really big now… we’re training him to get used to a leash so that we can tie him up… he nows knows how to “sit” whenever you tell him, but he expects a food reward, you have to pretend that you have something in your hands, and then he would sit, with his tail wagging and then he looks at you expectantly for food… i was planning to take him “walking” with me at the plaza but last time out, when my brother brought him outside the gate, people were like the “red sea”… they just kind of scooted in the corner of the road wherever pod2 goes… i guess they’re kind of afraid of him, considering that he’s kind of big (but he’s just a puppy), and black and very serious looking… i can only imagine if he grows up to be waist-high tall…

the funny thing is he’s kind of afraid of kim (the siamese cat)… pod2 always chases xiani (the other cat) and then xiani is really kind of afraid of him because whenever he sees him, his hair stands up and he runs away… but not kim… pod2 would kind of bark at kim and then kind of “paw” at her but kim just stares at him and then just stays sitted… and if pod2 attempts to paw at her, she scratches him… and pod2 would then run away… hehehe…

i think they will be “friends” as soon as they get used to each other…

lately, i have observed that kim loves to hang out at the lovebirds’ cage… i mean, she just stays there and looks at the birds and when one of then gets near the edges, she leaps up… i guess, she thinks that she can catch one of them, although technically she can’t because of the wires… she still tries though… to no avail…

i’ve been shivering and i have goosebumps all over… ohoh! i’m already wrapped up in a jacket but it doesn’t seem to take any effect…

i haven’t slept decently today… when i arrived home this morning, i just ate a slice of bread and sat in front of the tv… wahahaha…. when tatay went back home after dropping off nanay at the office, the three of us went to marymart to buy groceries for the snack i’m supposed to prepare…

did i mention that saturday is “free” day at the office? we’d work for four hours, have a snack and then 2 people will discuss their tasks… it’s my turn today… jian and i have already discussed the game that we’ll have after… it’s kind of fun so i’m quite excited…. i’m not really nervous about my report though, even though i lack preparation… i’m supposed to talk about website testing and i’m pretty confident that i know something about the topic since i’ve been doing it for three months…

i sure hope i won’t make a fool of myself!… (crossing my fingers)

‘mostly nothing”, i answered

uh huh… but i am definitely not unproductive. i have already finished my 6-page report for today yesterday… so despite my 9-hour sleep, i was feeling sleepy so i was dozing off the whole night…

i actually recieved an e-mail from one of my “clients” yesterday… as soon as i saw her e-mail, i thought that she had something for me to do… it’s very, very rare that my clients even contact me, much less give me something to do, for almost three months now, i think it was only twice that they actually gave me work… i’m mostly left to my own devices to do something…

so back to the e-mail… i was actually quite excited (and a little bit anxious too) to read the e-mail because for one thing, i was hoping she’d give me something to do, and for another, i actually thought that she might some “feedback” on what i have been doing…

so i mustered up the courage to read the e-mail…

“augel, I’m curious, don’t you take the weekends off and relax?” wrote joan.

wehehehe… i was pretty amused by it… i think that joan is just a good person… she’s always (two or three times) the one who e-mails me, and says “good work” or that she appreciates the work i’m doing for them…

really now… although i shouldn’t really make a big deal out of them, i actually appreciate that she e-mails me, every once in a while… at least i know that she reads my reports… even though i pretty much figure out that it’s not really that “important” i still can “imagine” that i do important work…

hahaha…

the moment i woke up, i felt like the whole world was spinning, i barely stopped myself from vomitting. i guess it was from complications with my eyes because i felt the same way when i was having problems with my eyes way back in high school.

i had already scheduled my whole day. i was supposed to tidy up my room and then go out of the house and shop around, but i ended up lying on bed the whole morning. i then forced myself to get up after lunch to finish up some chores at home coz i’m usually the only one left at home every afternoon. i just then laid (lied?) in the couch and watched tv… when i couldn’t take the ‘dizziness” anymore… i went back to bed and closed my eyes… i didn’t sleep though… i was just there, with my eyes closed and trying to feel better…

i was deciding whether i’d go to work or not, but i decided that it’s the last day of the month and it wouldn’t be good if i end the month being absent… so i dragged my big butt to work…

i felt a little bit better at work though, at least i was being occupied with something else… even though i didn’t do much… time seemed a little bit fast yesterday and before i knew it was already 2 am. i wanted to buy food from jollibee earlier (i didn’t eat dinner and i was kind of hungry) but it was raining very hard, and i couldn’t go out of the building… during the break though, my officemates decided to go out and eat at ted’s, so i went with them. breachelle and i just shared a bowl of batchoy…

let me see… i think there were 10 of us, we just spent most of the time talking. i actually felt quite better (coz i’ve forgotten i was not feeling too well)

i felt like today didn’t really go by. when i arrived home, i just ate breakfast, watched tv and slept… i actually slept from 11 am to 8pm nonstop… i was really out of it… when i woke up, i was kind of confused because i thought it was already morning and i missed going to work… hahaha

it took quite a while to figure out what time is it… i’m still feeling a little bit dizzy but a lot lot better than what i felt yesterday… i’m actually quite sleepy…. nyeeahh… to think that i slept the whole day!

i’m stopping myself from drinking coffee….

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