A Lump in the Throat

March 28, 2008 – 12:23 am
Today is one of those days.Sometimes you just feel lonely and sad. No matter how hard you try to ignore it, it's the way it is. And you're caught in a limbo. You get overwhelmed because you don't understand why you feel that way. When you woke up this morning, you were actually feeling all right. The sun is shining brightly, you felt fine and you're smiling. You went through your seemingly normal day. You talk with your friends, you pretend to do your work, you smile when someone says something funny. You seem to be you. Then, as the day went on, this feeling slowly creeps on you and you try to ignore it. You say to yourself, "I'm doing Ok. I shouldn't be feeling this way. There is no reason at all." But you are only fooling yourself. Because just being "OK" is never Ok. Is it not every person's ...

Books, books and more books

March 23, 2008 – 10:49 am
How many books are there? Well, I just finished reading two and I'm halfway on my third. Though technically I've already read them sometime ago, I've quite forgotten the details, so I'm re-reading them. Two books are by John Grisham (of course!) -- The Client and The Pelican Brief. These are really some of the first books written by Grisham (they're old!) and I quite remember that I've already read them in high school some 10 years ago. So I've got a good excuse if I say that I've forgotten some of the details in the story. Consequently, both books have been made into a movie -- one with the late Brad Renfro (bless his soul) and the other with Julia Roberts. The Client is about an 11-year old boy, Mark (Renfro) who along with his little brother (Ricky) saw the suicide of a Mafia lawyer. Things got complicated because this lawyer ...

Muted but…

March 18, 2008 – 11:08 pm
It's really been awhile since I've written a decent thing. The issue is that I don't really feel like sharing lately - feelings-wise and thoughts-wise. There are just times that a person won't feel the urge to blurt out every thought, ache & pain, and useless crappolas and just keep their feelings inside... I've been that lately -- talking and not speaking, hearing and not listening, smiling and laughing; but not really. Although since I am writing right now, I guess it might mean I'm slowly coming out of my shell to take a peek at what's going on with the rest of the world. Am I or am I not?!

Falling Slowly

February 27, 2008 – 2:48 pm
Falling Slowly is from the soundtrack of a little indie movie Once. It won the Best Original Song in the recent Oscars awards last Sunday. You can also download the song for free here!

Stone by Charles Simic

February 18, 2008 – 4:43 pm
Go inside a stone That would be my way. Let somebody else become a dove Or gnash with a tiger's tooth. I am happy to be a stone.   From the outside the stone is a riddle: No one knows how to answer it. Yet within, it must be cool and quiet Even though a cow steps on it full weight, Even though a child throws it in a river; The stone sinks, slow, unperturbed To the river bottom Where the fishes come to knock on it And listen.   I have seen sparks fly out When two stones are rubbed, So perhaps it is not dark inside after all; Perhaps there is a moon shining From somewhere, as though behind a hill-- Just enough light to make out The strange writings, the star-charts On the inner walls.