A Lump in the Throat
March 28, 2008 – 12:23 am
Today is one of those days.Sometimes you just feel lonely and sad. No matter how hard you try to ignore it, it’s the way it is. And you’re caught in a limbo. You get overwhelmed because you don’t understand why you feel that way.
When you woke up this morning, you were actually feeling all right. The sun is shining brightly, you felt fine and you’re smiling. You went through your seemingly normal day. You talk with your friends, you pretend to do your work, you smile when someone says something funny. You seem to be you. Then, as the day went on, this feeling slowly creeps on you and you try to ignore it.
You say to yourself, “I’m doing Ok. I shouldn’t be feeling this way. There is no reason at all.” But you are only fooling yourself. Because just being “OK” is never Ok. Is it not every person’s goal to go through their lives living it to the fullest?
When you try so hard to forget, it is because you don’t want today to happen. When you feel this way, you can’t do nothing about it. You remember happy things, but it only makes you even more sad. So you decide to just forget everything. Maybe, if you forget everything, you’ll feel a little bit better.
Empty but better.
